ang puso ni piso

when i got home from school, i immediately looked for papa knowing that he arrived already. mama spilled he was at the kitchen hiding from me. as i walk towards the light switch there, he picked and lifted me up! DawnZulueta ang  peg! :)) here are our pictures the past days :)

at ever gotesco commonwealth, just bought some groceries then dined at pizza hut.



at quezon memorial circle :> trying to be fit eh :))

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from crossroad 77 to ever :)

20th of Feb, classes for AIS and Law have been cancelled. We just went to school to vote. I spent my whole afternoon with my friends, and the rest at the pavilion. I asked Tan go home with me but i wasn’t aware of the time his seminar will end. he misinterpreted my text messages and thought i was mad and in a rush. when we met around 7pm, he yelled at me and uttered such really shocking words; it was as if he’s my father and I’m his daughter who did something really really wrong.

I was really O_o and >___< and =(((( i remained silent for the whole evening we were together. idk how to respond to his effin words or even to react with his guilty actions next. he was clingy on the fx and apologized for a couple of times. i wasn’t mad at all but i felt really bad, i even hugged him before we parted ways. nevertheless, he shouldn’t have done that to me. well i understand that he was really having a bad day, he was sick and hungry. i asked him if we could eat before we went home but he declined. so there’s no lack of diligence on my part. i didn’t rushed him, i just wanted to know how long is his seminar so maybe i can do something more productive than waiting and  surfing the net on pav. well, i thought of doing the exercises on our MA but there was still a lot of surplus time. when i got home, i was still feeling lost. idk how could he suddenly just get mad at me. we were like compromising time few minutes ago but then he just blew up.

the next morning, i was already humane. i responded to his messages with I guess sufficient sense. Supposedly, we’ll go to school together but since he wasn’t feeling good yet i was by myself. There was a photoshoot for jpia by 9am so i went early. my class is still 6pm so i spent my idle time at p4. we met around 4pm at isetann to talk. he even attempted to buy me flowers but i refused, i mean he has already gave me lots and those will wither anyway, which makes me quite sad. Then, with my dilemma of attending class or not, the moving of our quiz for next meeting made my decision quite certain. I and Tan headed off to Trinoma to buy Aaliyah a birthday gift and to spend time with each other. In the middle of the cold and dark night at Trinoma’s open garden, we talked like there’s no tomorrow, cuddled, and just had fun :)

Nothing can make me love him less Ü *char -bounded by exemptions HAHA. the mist was really cuuute :> it made the moment a lot more special :3 the rain made us go inside around 7pm. we went downstairs to grab some dinner. during our convo, there was one thing that struck me :) he’s not after that S word and he tells his classmates how much he values it :) at first i found it quite awkward because it was asdfghjkl censored! hahaha and i would not want it either like ever before we get married hahaha but to think that he’s a guy and there are lots of teenage pregnancies happening around, i think that’s one great thing :)

we went home around 8pm. t’was raining hard but he still walked me home. my stuff were so heavy but he still carried such, all of ‘em with his umbrella on his right hand. he doesn’t have to do that i mean i am not really demanding or whatsoever but he insisted. it makes me love him more :”> he thought of always putting me first before anything else even himself. well i am not asking for that, he doesn’t need to do anything heroic because i’m happily satisfied that I am in love with the man i want for the rest of my life :) 

just last Saturday, we were excused from classes because of FEU’s 85th foundation celebration. i and cherie mae headed off to circle to shoot my video resume. after that, i and tan met at SMNE. my slipper got broken. i used my heels but can hardly walk. i called tan and asked him to buy me a pair of new ones. he rushed off from trinoma to sm just to immediately give me what he bought. sweat on his face, deep breath and sincere eyes made me just pause for a while and assist him in changing my feet cover. i felt like Cinderella! he worried about my condition and was soooo thoughtful :”>

supposedly, we’d watch movie but i was late so we just ate instead. afterwards, as we look for a milktea stand, i want to hold his left hand but he resists. i asked him what was wrong but he just kept on avoiding the question. my patience ran off. i walked out. well, i really didn’t want to go home yet. we went to happy lemon at trinoma then talked at the open area in the middle. well bottom line is we knew what our mistakes were and we’re so much willing to change for the better. though i was really stubborn, i didn’t listen to him much, i made the issue bigger and just nagged and nagged like there was no tomorrow, i got no intention of breaking up with him or just hurt him. i just want to fight for what i think is really right for us, we’re partners so there’s nothing that we should hide from each other, exemptions are stories that need not be told and stories that i don’t give a damn at.

well, (can’t think of a good transition) what i wanted to emphasize here is that one thing that made me crazzzyyy the whole night. i was quite irritated with our never-ending issue because he was like idk but WEIRD, there was something that kept me giggling and smiling at the most random times. this was the reason why i forgot our misunderstanding and his being inconsiderate immediately. he shed a tear as we talk on that open area of trinoma and surprisingly, he bent down on his kneees. my initial reaction was to make him stand and the next was “galit-galitan” but deep inside i was like asdfghjkl :”“”“”“”> omg. never did i expected that in my life. idk. well that is not really necessary for me to forgive him but i was just really surprised. can’t explain here enough but it made me realize his sincerity more. his words as he cried just melted my heart away.

then i knew what relationship really mean is asking and giving a part of each other. not the 24/7 type that everything should be relayed but the things that will bring you closer and more intimate; things, events, interests and experiences that will help you grow and mature. I and tan don’t see each other that often and because of that i’ve been so demanding of his time and attention. i was so eager to know everything as in everything about him that later on i knew wasn’t healthy anymore. So as he promised me that he’d change, i promised myself to change as well. Care should be observed in a tolerable way that i don’t control him much. i should respect the things he don’t want to share and just settle for what is said. hope that these adjustments will all be for our best and most especially, i hope that i’ll be able to do such. goooodluck to me :))))) 

As i got home from my date with Tan, i knew there was something going on at our house. everybody was busy and it was soooo messy. then when they saw me, they were like O_o >_< hahahahaha. they were trying to surprise me! well, at the very least, i was soooo surprised :D We also celebrated my tita gem and tito fred’s wedding anniversarry and prayed for my tita tess’s departure on the following week. It was a really tummy and heart fulfilling event :) I am so blessed to have my such wonderful people around me that aside from the physical needs they provide, they guide me on my well-being and support me on the road i want to take. Super thank God :) ♥

btw, we also had celebrated my pre-birthday at moa, landmark and greenhills the day before :>

Nineteen :) ♥

idk or i just really don’t know, do i? I do.
as i try to write a serious entry about the last teen-year of my life, i end up lost for words. I don’t want to make it appear like it’s a really big deal or I don’t want to emphasize it as my life’s turning point. I turned 19. I’m thankful, i so am. So now what? Every birthday is a precious one and so is this. Maybe i just haven’t got my usual enthusiasm of sharing stories right now or maybe i want to impress myself so i feel awkward and stuck. Now, how am i supposed to relate this? =)))) NVM. straight, to the story.

January 14, Monday - i went to feu to submit my jpia officership application form and met with tan :) i want to celebrate my special day with him just like what he did last time when it was his turn. i got two places in mind -kamay kainan at trinoma and Cafe Dominic at Q.ave. well, the latter prevailed. the cakes were good but somehow not for a heavy meal :)) i ended up losing appetite and wanting to vomit everything :)) while eating, we chatted, took picturesss and had fun. he gave me this nice keychain with engraved Tin, Tan and infinity sign :) until now, idk where to put this. i don’t want to lose it or destroy it so i just keep it :))) Afterwards, we went to the Sto. Domingo church and uttered our personal prayers to God. UST was our next stop :) i inquired at the admission center of the iforgotthename building :))) then roamed around :> we walked from there to recto then went home via lrt 2 :)

Able to spend my special day with my special someone is the most special gift I received :> Thank you Lord ♥

after the song ended nagpa-dawnzulueta ako sa kanya :))) mjo fail but at least haha. then i played PusongBato and put my phone inside his pocket as we walked towards the gate :)) funneh haha.

-Such an awesome morning with the one I love :) Hope to do more exciting things with him in God’s grace :D

-J.R.V.TAN, YOU TURNED MY WORLD UPSIDE DOWN :)

*weird ksi ng app. npuputol ung previous post ko.